Left brain needs to work out

I couldn't stand more than 1 week studying for exams. So after my Korean paper on Thursday, 've been acting as if my exams are totally over. :/ Clearly I am a right brained. I couldn't take sitting down for long hours, cramping information into my tiny brain. I needed to go out, I needed to draw something. Anything.

It has been a long time since I drew a portrait. After watching some youtube videos and falling in love with 2NE1 all over again, I decided to do up this sketch of 다라. It was a headache because I felt like I just couldn't capture her essence. This was the result after much erasing, haha.

Today met the babsey in town, it was a simple lunch/movie/shopping date. (like finally hahaha)

I saw some cute items in this Korean shop that I had to get them and he offered to pay for me with his army pay (': so touchingz.

My new pouch/wallet! I really really love this I was admiring it and doing nothing else just now and he thought I was crazy. I've been waiting to get a pouch to use as a wallet and now that I got a really cute one... :D

I'm giving myself this weekend to slack and play  it away before getting down to studying for Thurday's maths paper. :/ My left brain told me it's so fat cuz it hasn't been working out. :C

Nothing feels better than going for a jog and feeling a weenie bit fitter after that. (:

Hope all of you had a good day too!

OH BLUE.

It took me long to notice his sky blue hair and fall in love with it. Mmm, I am resisting the urge to start sketching him before tmrw's evening paper....

AH.

Yours.

Fatigue is the right word to describe the body. But finally, the worst is over! AAH paper today and it was good C: Can't say for sure that I'll do well in it but well at least I feel much more confident this time.

Spent the whole day studying and stressing over the paper with my friends. I've not felt so scared and nervous for an exam in a very long while...I'm wondering why I actually felt this way. Maybe it's the expectation that I have for myself, that makes me feel obliged to do well?

So it's one down and two to go, up next is korean on Thursday! I think it'll feel like the whole exams are over after this thursday hahaha we'll have mahjong night with friends + movie with the Babsey omgz I can't wait! Math can wait.

Looking forward to the holidays so much! There's so many things on my to-do list. Like picking up some digital painting skills + binding another book + driving + maybe look for a relevant job? :B

Tonight I'm gna have an overdose of korean songs and hopefully it'll magically diffuse into my system.

I've been wearing his shirts to sleep these days because they're all so comfy and they smell like him. C: It's a comforting smell that always keep my heart warm and fuzzy and make me feel like I'm not alone.

오늘 밤에 한국어를 공부해요. 어려워요! ):

Where's the love?

Ooh, blogger has a new layout and all I felt lost for a moment. And I waited forever for this page to appear hahaha. Anyway! Apparently not concentrating on mugging for AAH. WHY IS IT SO HARD TO CONCENTRATE.

Went to cut hair (FINALLY) on Saturday, I asked the barber to cut my fringe till it wasn't covering my eyes. When she finished cutting she went "like that ah?" and we both let out a soft laughter.

I've a phobia of short fringes, but I was so so so annoyed with it blocking my vision I couldn't take it anymore...

And and and Babe and I happened to come across Happy Hippos yaaaay I've been looking for this for so long! This adds to my stack of comfort food&drinks. And just now in the car he gave half a pack of cadbury digestive biscuit to me (and brought the other half to camp) C: Today is prolly one of the rare times we could accompany each other to camp/school and help a little with the blues C: Sent him to camp before coming to hall so I could be more focused (but obviously not happening).

I wish his hair stays short and fuzzy...hmm. :3

Three papers in two weeks. One of which is maths, something I haven't touched. at. all.

Oh, time to buy some pens...and err, borrow calculator. I think I'll spend the first 5 minutes figuring where the 'on' button is. :/

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Art should be something we enjoy doing and not something so competitive. I don't like it how this environment has shaped me into someone who'd feel this way about my own works. I have to stop feeling so lousy about them and start loving what I do even more to do even better.

Whatever I am doing and whatever I can achieve all belongs to God and it is only by his grace that I can even draw and paint. I should be thankful and love this talent instead. ♥

I miss the feeling of feeling good about my works.

The Happy Book C:

Today we submitted our book publications in class. This marks our last submission for the year as a foundation student! I was really impressed with everyone's books they were soooo creative! It makes me want to do more to improve myself over the holidays. It kinda makes me reflect on my own book and think that I can do better.

So, I have decided to work on my book after the exams during the holidays. C: And make a nicer and thicker version of this! Honestly I'm not exactly very proud of my book and it doesn't give me the sense of satisfaction and accomplishment that I'd have after completing every project. But as the Marmite said, "If your best isn't enough, it just means that you have the potential to do better". Her words really struck me. Somehow the mother always knows best and her words are always so encouraging. C: So I'm looking forward to the holidays cuz I can use the time to work on this mini project!

Anyway as promised, here are the pages of my book! Enjoy! C:

(click to have a bigger view)

Exams have barely started and I'm living my life like it's the holidays already. :/ But seeing the number of people studying at Can A with their tables filled with books and tutorials spread all over, I thank God that I'm in an art school.

Although having electives are not helping...

Disappointment #1

It's such an irony that it's titled "The Happy Book" but it's making me so sad and disappointed. There're some imperfections in the binding of the pages of the book and I feel like I went thru so much heart-accelerating shit to get this done in the most perfect condition possible but it didn't turn out as what I had expected it to be.

I really hate it when my works don't live up to my expectations/shit happens/things that are not within our control. I know it isn't that bad but I can't help but notice the flaws screaming out at me. It's always very, very obvious to myself. Even the smallest flaws are jarring.

I need to start loving my book more so people can love it too.

Anyway, anticipate the pages to come! C:

So what do you do when you're tired of being constructive?

Double disappointments in a day because I couldn't keep my expectations lower.

It reaches the point where silence is the best remedy.

Just Do It!

The next 2 days will be spent in hall working on my book for Thursday's submission. I feel like a workaholic when it comes to things that I absolutely love to do.

It's my first time binding and hand-making a whole book by myself and I'm pretty nervous/ afraid that it wouldn't turn out well. I'm not even sure it what I'm doing is the correct way to go about doing it. But whenever I feel uncertain, Babe's words of wisdom will always appear in my mind C:

That I just have to do it and feel confident, then everything else would turn out fine.

I sliced a piece of my index finger while cutting the one of the pages just now. There's literally a dent in my finger and it feels wonky and I can almost see the meat/blood waiting to be freed. )':

I can feel the fatigue setting in...

Anyway, it feels good to know Babsey's camp is so near and he'll no longer be at the other end of the island. C:

Lonely Days Ahead~

It was a good choice to bring my subwoofers to hall since 'd be spending the next three days alone in hall because the Anternette is only coming back on Thursday :C

Sucks to be in hall alone.

One last deadline to be met, and then it's the exams and end of sem!! I really can't wait there's so many things to look forward to :D We had our last drawing class last monday. It went really well, but I was secretly missing our old class where we had so much more fun (dressing like our teacher and all). Here's some of my friend's works!

Nette being half-awake ahahhaa. I love her painting of cute children (:

Here's my final painting! I'm starting to think that I unconsciously have a thing for morbid (not gory) stuffs. :/

Right now there's only 2D left and 'm almost done with my HAPPY BOOOOOKKKKK so exciting I can't wait to finish it!! The anticipation! :D

Work aside...I had a fantastic weekend with the babsey (apart from the part where I fell sick). We did nothing much really, but there was just something different about him/about us. I felt so loved. C: I love the feeling of being taken care of by him, of knowing that he's actually interested in what I've to say. I love long bus rides on rainy days with the dearest person next to me, where it feels like everything was just right in place and there was no where else I would wna be at and nothing else I would wna be doing.

Nice long weekends like this make me dread school so much.

Btw posting results were out on Friday, so proud of him for getting into SCS (: He says he wants to aim for OCS from there..it's difficult to get it I believe keep praying and he'll be able to make it! Though it's totally alright if he doesn't cuz it means he'll have more time out heh heh. :D (please don't smack me)

♥

POP goes the Babsey!

Looking back, we were agreeing that time actually passed quite quickly this year. Babsey just had his POP this morning and 'm really happy for him cuz he's finally having his block leave=free time! (though it's my busy period now) Sigh we are always free at different timings and it's so hard to genuinely spend time enjoying together.

Sometimes I feel like we're so comfortable with each other, we do our own things when we're around each other and...I feel myself secretly wanting more attention because free time spent together seems so sparse nowadays.

Nevertheless I hope he gets into the unit he wants!

(I particularly like the way he smiled in this picture C:)

I really dread the days ahead of me. Who said Uni life was much easier?

Anyway I have a korean speech tomorrow and I hope I won't forget my lines in front of everyone...really can't wait for the next 3/4 weeks to be over and I can FINALLY enjoy my 3 months worth of holidayzzzz. :D

I was rewriting my korean essay and realized that I need to get myself a correction tape. Oh gosh, when was the last time I used that?

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There's a hell lot of things to be done but I feel so fatigue so I shall sleep soon while feeling guilty for not doing much today...

The comforting smell of your shirt lingers tonight. ♥

Hello April.

Everything is moving so quickly! Weekends feels as short as ever. :C I was just going back from school yesterday evening, and now I'm back here thinking of all the work that I've to clear.

Had a rather PMSy week...was being annoyed at every little thing, impatient with the public transport, and fatigue from carrying all the shit from hall to back to Babsey's house yesterday. But on the way to his house, he surprised me downstairs with the most comforting hug I've had in a long while. Though just the sight of him was comforting enough...

It was perfectly just what I needed at that moment. ♥

Right now I can't wait for the next week to end so he'll be out of tekong C: And next 3 weeks to end so I can start to enjoy my life a little bit more. I can't wait to clear all the deadlines.

Let's do it Jedidah!