Rollercoaster Routines.

I have the cutest dog ever. He just never fails to warm my heart every morning when I wake to unleash him, every time he barks and gets all excited when I come home, and every night when he does something like this. A cuteness that's so effortless.

For some reason he kept following me around the house when I was about to go into my room to sleep. So I left the door half-open so that he could sleep on door mat if he wanted too. And in the middle of the night I heard a little bang on the door followed by his footsteps in my room. I think he might have knocked his head on the door cuz it was too dark or something. :/ Silly dog.

I've been in a rather low mood these days. Majorly affected by the fact that army has been robbing me of my boyfriend even on weekends lately and it's really annoying. Well you'll say it's probably a good thing if you look on the brighter side, it brings us closer together. Maybe you're right, maybe I'd learn to appreciate the little time we have when we meet, but all I really want right now is just the luxury of spending my time with him. And I'm hating army life so much, how different is it from a prison?!

So every weekend I'd carry a happy heart, one that's excited. But today it was somehow different, I wasn't sure why. Probably exhausted from all the anticipation and disappointment I had the night before, and tired from him being upset about staying back in camp for stupid reasons.

Seeing him cheered me up nevertheless. He made spaghetti and bought a bag of prawn crackers just for me and it made me smile like a stupid girl. I really love him a lot for putting up with all my whining and nonsense. Love the boy who knows me best.

And then it's our most dreaded time of the day again. I'm really embracing the future when all these shit are over and when we have a life of our own...

But as for now, life is like a routined rollercoaster. And you know how much I hate rollercoasters.

Rain Down on Me

Today I went to visit my grandmother, and she cooked up a yummy dinner for us. We sat there--me, my cousin Zac, and her. We talked as we ate, and somehow or another we always ended up talking about my grandfather.

As I'm sitting here and it's roaring thunder raining cats and dogs outside my window, I can't help but imagine what it is like to be in my grandmother's shoes right now, to be in her room all alone at this very moment. To be alone in a queen sized bed. She said that right after he passed away, she couldn't get used to her being all alone in that big house. And she obviously misses him very much up to date.

Every time it's pouring outside in the night like this, it's when I miss the boy the most and I can't stop wishing he was right here with me now. And this makes me think about the future, what would be of me when the time comes and I'd be like my grandmother? How am I possibly going to survive all these rainy nights alone...

I have half a mind to wake earlier in the morning to hit the gym downstairs before going to school to help out with FOC props, but judging from the weather tonight...to be able to wake up will be a big issue. T:


On another thought, I will spend this holiday doing some serious reflecting and pondering on my life and on God, because I feel like I have been such a bad child to Him. And I feel extremely ashamed.


Heart-felt words.

Semester 2 Results!

First of all, I want to say THANK YOU GOD FOR LETTING ME PASS MATHS!! Really, nothing else matters why? Because the aim of this exam was just to never take maths again.

Maths aside, I'm quite thankful for my results this sem although I did a little worst than last sem. it's quite surprising to still see A+ because I feel that I haven't been working as hard as I did last sem. So thank God nevertheless!

(:

And a B- for Korean. Hmm...I'd still take it next year because I like it.

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Let's Get Stupid Dancing With the Cupid Tonight

So I've been working on something lately...

I'm planning to sell handmade hard & soft covered notebooks that are specially designed by me!! :o) Prolly gonna set up a blogshop or so, haha I really hope this works out cuz it's so fulfilling to see my designs printed on the cover of books :D Currently working on the website though I've no idea how to go about it...

Besides that, I've been working on my own official art site too! It's mostly up, just need to do a little bit more editing before I'll publish it! Stay tuned for the link :D

I don't usually blog about the clothes that I buy, but I was out with the Marmite yesterday night and we found this really cute owl pjs! It's too cute and comfortable I feel so happy that I get to sleep in it. :D We were on a shopping spree last night and forgot that we were supposed to have dinner.

And the poor boy only got to book out this morning & had to book in tonight. ): It felt like eons since I last saw him. I really dislike army sighhhhh.

So I headed to his place after church. His mom cooked really yummy food for dinner! I sincerely think she should open a food store cuz she's a really good cook. I will be her #1 customer. :D

And because he was too tired to clean off the remnants of camo around his eyes, he looked like a tranny hahahahaha!

It's gonna be 3 years this September, feels like we've been through so much already. :B

It's funny how I can be so madly in love with someone, and at this stage love everything about him. With time we've learnt so much about each other, only to grow deeper in our love. Recently I find myself constantly missing him throughout the week, and looking forward to the weekends cuz it's when I feel most myself around him. Holidays are not enjoyable Life is not enjoyable without him around. Even when we do the most mundane things together, it beats doing the things I enjoy alone. I really don't know what the future brings, but I know we can get through anything together.

God will watch over us. ♥

And he ends each day saying "Can't wait to see you this weekend", I guess that's what makes it so much easier to get through each week. :o)

(Ego boost much babe?)

On a Taylor Swift playlist tonight.

IDEA Stung Like a Bee

Today I went for a driving lesson, and realize that it has actually been 5 whole months since the last time I went for my last lesson! It's so scary how time flies and we've been too busy to even realize it. Well at least I wasn't that bad since 've been secretly practicing outside for a few times... :B

Anyway two days ago as I was packing my room, I took the chance to finally hang my landscape painting of Bogong Village, Australia on my wall in place of the old frame. C: It makes me so happy because the painting suites the colour of my walls so well.

And then I have other paintings which are huge and are taking up lots of space in my room 'm thinking of selling them away...if people would actually want to buy?

I have a brilliant idea of what I want to do during this holiday (((((: (Instead of getting a proper paying job haha) I hope it works out! And yaay we're going to Phuket next month or so! 've been having this urge to sit on the airplane recently. Oh gosh can't wait to get myself a nice tan on the beach. :D

I am very happy today because I finally got to eat an apple which tasted so good after many many months of not eating apples or eating lousy ones. Credits to my grandma who packed apples back for me because she knows I love them. C':

After recovering from my one week's worth of sickness, 've been trying to gain back my stamina and it's so so torturous. I hate how slow my stamina takes to build up and when I fall sick just one time, everything goes down the drain like that and it's so hard to get it back.

♥

So this is how it feels like to be constantly missing a person. Somedays a little less, somedays much more and difficult to get by.

Touch Rugby Days

This is one of the nights I'm reminiscing about the past and missing dearly.

I miss playing this sport, something so unique and the love for it was shaped by the experience that I had. I miss the feeling of being fit and energetic, of striving for the best and running for the ball. I miss pushing myself, only to realize how much more I can achieve.

What more is that I miss our team. I miss how we persevered together as a whole and watched each others' backs. I miss how we endured the never ending tortures, and also the fun times we had. I even miss how we shouted at each other on the field.

I would give anything to live through this stage of my life again. The toughest trainings and punishments were totally worth our efforts because we've learnt and grown so much from them. Some ask why didn't I join Touch in NTU since I love the sport so much. And I tell them it just isn't the same, it doesn't feel right. I don't feel like I'm part of the team in NTU as I was back then in NYJC.

All I can do now, is to look back and be glad it all happened.
♥

Life's Like That.

Haven't been blogging for the weekend because I've been too busy enjoying myself and falling sick at the same time...

First of all, JAYESSLEE CONCERT WAS A BLAST! It was totally worth going for their concert they sounded so good life!! I hope they come back to Singapore soon and we can get better seats and a meet and greet and I'll draw a portrait of them and give it to them myself. :B

Played mahjong at Leonard's house after the concert till the next morning and was the biggest winner~ But I think it was a wrong choice to do that because the rest of the weekend was just spent being sick and sleeping and being taken care of by the boy...

I have no idea why I have this urge to want to be with him 24/7 especially when I'm sick, because I feel safe and I somehow just feel much better with him around. I don't feel like talking to anyone else but him because I feel like he understands the most...Now that he's back in camp, I'm feeling kinda lousy. )':

Tomorrow night 'm heading to Genting with the cheer peeps and it's gna be fun with that bunch of people! I really hope I can recover by tmrw so I can really enjoy the trip and finally be eating good food! (Urgh life without good food is terrible terrible)

By the way, I'm currently jobless and looking for a relevant job/ internship to last me thru the holidays and because I am broke. :/ Please contact me if you've any opportunities to share! Thanks :D

Happy Post Exams! C:

Lines & Scribbles, unlike Maths, doesn't have to make sense.

Yet another therapeutic self-sketching session after several weeks of studying, my brain needed to let loose.

Lying on the bed and sketching my work desk in hall makes my reflect through the wonderful things that I've done here throughout the past year. There's so many memories accumulated in the smallest things that I could observe. By tomorrow this time, I would have packed every junk you see here back home. Shit have happened and I don't deny the familiar feeling of school blues on sunday nights...but it was an awesome year nevertheless!

I hope we can get this same room back again next year, because I love how it's so convenient because it's the office and canteen block, and it's the 5th floor so there's an excuse to take the lift. C: (ground level is 3rd floor btw)

Right now I'm honestly just wondering how I'm going to pack everything by tmrw before my dad comes...

Where should I even start?

:/

Five.

Five more hours to the end of this misery...(well a huge part of it)

Sigh, the boy knows best what to say to make me feel better no matter how miserable I am feeling...

Why I should be...

Why I should be sad:

1. The whole world is done with their exams and I'm one of the poor few souls left here struggling for my life.
2. I have not finished studying the subject, and it is so irrelevant in my life it's just making me question why am I even studying something like this. I JUST WANNA/ NEEDA PASS PLEASE PLEASE. I really don't wna retake this stupid mod.
3. I can feel my sore throat coming back. That's for being a bad girl and secretly drinking some cold drinks today ):
4. I want to eat chilli.
5. I cannot eat a Happy Hippo, I gave 2 out of 5 away and haven't eaten 1 of the 3 remaining since the day I bought it. And I really really wanna eat one. It was supposed to be 1 a day till the day my exams end...
6. The boyfriend is sleeping away in camp and I'm talking to myself on whatsapp but I really feel like talking to him now. )':
7. My throat is really quite painful.

Why I should be happy:

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Sickgirlhowz?

I had the weirdest sickness ever. Came back to hall feeling a pinch of sorethroat on the way here and it got worst towards the night. Woke up at 5+am with a high fever, took a panadol and went back to sleep. Felt much better after waking again...

It was such a short lived fever, maybe like what Babe said, it just shows the power of our God who heals. C:

Still feeling the after effects of a fever and some sore throat. Spent the longest time in the shower because the warm water was too comfortable to be turned off and it was cold everywhere. :C

Urghh sucks to be sick when the math paper is in 2 days and I don't understand shit. Stuck at every example. D:>

ZHEN ME BAN?!?!!

I'm certain that sleep cures all kinds of sicknesses. So, goodnight world! A promise made to be asleep by 1215am.