Mind > Body

When I came back from my long jog around NTU, I received (a missed call and) the cutest and longest text ever.

C':

You just know the right words to say. ♥

(And 'm not afraid to publicly admit that I miss you alot though you'll probably make fun of it the next time we meet)

Need You Now Babe.

Some things can be joked about once or twice, but it isn't okay when you do it all the time.

Some things can be said once or twice, but it loses it's meaning when you say it all the time.

Everyone had to choose this day to make me bottle up a feeling like this, when the only person I really want to see/talk to right now isn't here.

It's one of those nights, where I keep hitting the 'next' a million times and not one song appeals to me. It's so ironic that 'm painting something so light hearted with such a heavy heart.

My tears are just waiting fall...once I hit comfort zone.

The Book of Happy Things

I can't believe we just booked the tickets to their concert!! :D It was like fighting a war online according to the friends hahaha the tickets ran out so quickly! i just hope that the boy can make it that friday night please please let him book out early. :/

Have I told anyone about the book 'm making for my 2D final project? C:

It's a book about Happy Things, made to make people happy when they open it. And to make myself happy in the process of making it, which I am really really enjoying myself right now! People will think that I'm mad cuz I can't help but smile and giggle to myself while painting hahha! This is probably the first time I'm doing a project in which I'm not really concern about the grades it'll get me, but rather, enjoying the process is like taking a break from doing other work I have at hand. C:

This is precisely the way art projects should be.

I AM GOING TO PUBLISH MY OWN BOOK HOW COOL IS THATTTZ.

Apart from that, I secretly can't stand how there's no more cheer trainings after tonight till this semester ends...too used to it. :C

Congested

Studying for Art History exam tomorrow is a pain in the head and ass. And I wonder why we must learn about the history of China because it does not help us in any way.

A short call from the boy just made me cry, but made it a hell lot better. It sucks to know that 'm not the only one suffering here in school, cuz at the other end of S'pore he's suffering as much as I am. But at the same time it feels comforting...

Just needed to hear these comforting words from him to make it all better.

And a "love you b". :B Did I hear wrong?

Fitting In

"Fitting In"

Watercolour & Ink

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Sometimes we feel pressured from society to fit in and be the same as everyone else around us. My illustration shows figuratively, a person being influenced and pressured by the rest around him. How could he be the only one with skin? What is the definition of being normal now?

After putting this painting on hold for 2 days cause I had so many other shit to do, I'm only done with one prep for foundation haha. The style was influenced by P. John Burden. I wonder how 'm gonna survive doing the final one in A2 size...

Next week is my hell week and I really want it to be over now there's so many things due:

1. Art History Exam
2. Math presentation
3. Submission of Korean Essay

These are the more important things, not forgetting all the other homework that I have. Sigh.

But on a lighter note, we are going to bind our own book for 2D class! I'm so excited for it cause there's so many ideas running through my mind :D I can't wait to get started on it!

P. John Burden

“In painting my job is to be to peel away the never ending layers that describe us. Like the archaeologist, I use hard won skills. But what I uncover has been there waiting – forever.

I’ve been sharpening my skills by drawing, printmaking, and painting, just about every day. I try to push further into the unknown each time I work, although I eventually run back to safe centre – yet already relishing the thought of the next sortie. There is a multitude of paintings still clamouring to be done. Nearly all my work is about relationships. With my beleaguered self , between persons, with the larger social, and natural environment, or perhaps with a god or two.”

P. John Burden

I bet your eyes are already glued onto his works! Was just browsing online when I came across this amazing artist who has some really gorgeous stuff! C: I really love the colours he uses and his style...hmm, maybe I could try to adopt it hehe!

I'm so very upset now, because shit happens. Because

1. Someone walked into our artwork (portal) in ADM and all the strings are broken and the metal wire is bent and there goes all our hard work.
2. The netting of my favorite new shorts got hooked on by something and now it's so ugly and I can't repair it. I've only worn it like twice.

I am dying alrdy on day 2 without the Babsey. )': Everyday all I do is think about school work and how to save myself and this is driving me nuts.

Have been feeling very lonely, even amidst the crowd.

Long Rides On Rainy Nights

Driving down familiar roads on a rainy night and listening to all the familiar songs playing on the radio lets all these font memories of us run themselves freely through my mind. I miss everything about you right now...though we were together just yesterday.

The feeling isn't the same. We're rushing, we're suffocating, we're restless. There're times like this when we just need a little breather from the hectic lives we're being forced to indulge in.

We say goodbye every Sunday, I watch you pack your bag and leave. While we both know exactly how each other's feeling inside..

I miss, the times when we could spend all of our days together. When you'd insist we head out for supper and a long walk back just to cheer me up.

Get Back on Track

난 내 남자 친구를 그리워 .

Haven't heard from him in 2 days and 'm kind of missing him alot right now. :C I've been surviving pretty well in school all thanks to him, for always being there at the right moment when I really needed him. C': And because I was so stressed out on Saturday, he cancelled his outing with his friends and rushed down just to meet me, to let me bury my face and cry in his shirt. We did nothing much at home really, when he could be else where catching a movie with his friends. I wanted to tell him how much all these meant to me.

Your home-made tau suan was the best too C:

Here's a sneak peak of what 've been doing (for him) for a very long while...

It was supposed to be meant as a gift for him few weeks ago, but 've been so busy it sucks and I can't seem to ever complete it. :C And it's a gift that's gna take a vvv long time to complete... :/ After feeling stressed out about school shit for the past few days, I think it's getting a little better now that 'm getting down to actually doing things and not just thinking about them and scaring myself.

I did a study sketch today and it felt really good to finally accomplish something relevant and useful in a long while. I can't wait to develop and work on my final project for drawing class. C:

I highly think my GPA will drop by alot this sem because I don't feel as focused as I was last sem. And taking stupid electives which I will have to SU I just hope I can pass. I need to get back the motivation to love art. I need to start studying for art history. I need to start working harder!

Okay not like GPA matters in ADM unless I want to go for exchange. Hmm 'm still considering.

Okay I need to sleep.