You Make Me Fly

Having some major school blues now– the after-effects of having an awesome worry-free weekend with the boyfriend and the mother.

Last Friday when I was at the Ntu bus stop waiting for the bus to head to J's house, half of me was so happy like I always am every Friday while the other half of me was a little sad when I thought of how fast the weekend would just pass me by like that. And here I am once again on a Sunday night in hall, suffering with this lonely-and-missing the boyfriend & home-feeling again.

Let's talk about the happy happy stuff!

When we reached J's house on friday the first thing I saw on the bed was this:

My belated birthday present from him! :D Belated because it needed time to be shipped over hehe. 've been wanting this for so loooongg alrdy. 'm such a happy girl 'm gna wear it to school everyday C: ♥♥♥

I remember drawing it somewhere in my sketchbook...heheh.

Just playing with some effects from the photo edit apps I downloaded hahah I like this!

It was a fulfilling weekend spent with the boyfriend and the mother. On saturday we went to pay for our Japan trip (yes dec trip to Japan!!), and then headed to Expo to shop for some electronic stuffs and the marmite had to go to the John Little sales haha. J and I were digging the sports kids section for goodies and this is what I found...

The sales person must have thought we were weird.

I don't want to think about work. I don't want to think about work. Weekend please come again quickly. ♥

Birthday Post

Feeling so much better today because I felt so loved. C: What will we do without our friends in school...thank you everyone who made this day so special!

Anyway since 'm happier I shall blog about the weekend too C:

Thanks marmite for the lunch @ Da Shang Hai, had a great time with great food and great company. ♥ And happy birthday to the brother as well, we'll always have each other to wish every year without fail. C: And a free cake to share.

And Babsey who's ALWAYS there to push me on and let me whine and rant on and on and not get sick of it. And sacrificing his weekend rest time to accompany me to get my work done/stuff printed despite him being so tired from trainings. And of course always treating me to good food just to make me happier (explains why 'm so fat now). And thank you for the little celebration/dinner we had with the ruggers on sat night C: Appreciate your attempt at surprising me though I could ttly sense it cuz I know you too well hahaha. ♥

And the roomie who's always here in school with me to suffer thru the rainy days. Thanks for this socuteicandielookingatit present C: You know what makes me happy. ♥

Lastly, I hope all my 3 wishes that I made will come true. :D Goodnight everyone~

From the 20 year old me.

Life has to be more than just this.

I know it sounds too dramatic to be saying this. But on this birthday, I really feel like asking God why was I even born on this earth 20 years ago.

It feels like nothing in my life is working out for me. None. In every direction I turn, there's always someone's expectations I have to face, someone else's problem I have to care about, or just, no one that sees through to my heart and truly understand how I really feel or who I really am.

If everything has to be done for a purpose or a goal in mind, the purpose will never be as simple as just to make me a happy girl for just one little day.

If everyone needed some care and concern, what about me?

Weekdays are a torture to get through as I look forward to the end of each long trying day.

But right now I'm not sure if my weekdays are worst, or my weekends.

It sucks to self-pity and let myself drown in all these sadness and negative emotions, but this is just too much to handle for a day.

On a night like this, I really, really feel like running away. Running to somewhere so far and dark that no one will be able to find me. It's like building up a wall, like closing my eyes, like curling up into a small corner. I don't wanna fall asleep because I don't wanna wake up tomorrow morning because it means having to face the rest of the world and having to brace myself again. I want to escape. I need to escape. Even if they think I am a coward.

She's someone else's angel

I love this song very much it's on replay. ♥
& the lead singer looks so much better in this vid than in their previous ones haha! He's quite cute here.

Here's a peak to what 've been up to today...

A typo-photo collage assignment!

And because I had to finish making this little notebook for myself,

Ohno time should pass by slower I don't wna go back to school. ): It feels so damn good to be staying home on a Monday even though there's a hell lot of work to do.