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My iTunes refuses to sync my iPhone now and I am so pissed. ):< Sigh I hate how I always feel so helpless when things like this happen to me cause I'm a tech noob and I don't know what to do about it...

I don't know why I feel so restless nowadays. Apart from driving lessons, 've been staying at home and feeling like there's nothing to do. I've been drawing too much in school and the first week of holidays, 'm beginning to get sick of it. Not sick maybe, just lack of inspirations. Seems like I've lost interest in most things. It always comes, but I'm sure that it'll pass.

To add on to that, I've been feeling lonely because Babsey's working everyday and he hardly has time to even reply his texts.

Oh what a sucky feeling.

Feeling a little lost today.

Daily Dose of Sketching

As promised, sketches of Ares and Poseidon are out. (: Though this are only for personal enjoyment hahaha. Babsey wants a painting of all the Greek Gods and he says he wants to hang in his room, so I'm going to do a bigger scaled one of all of them in watercolour (:

I love it how my teacher and my classmates are rubbing off their sketching habits onto me. I can't live a day without at least drawing something, anything. My hand itches to pick up the pen and brush when I don't. Even when I go out now I make it a point to bring along my sketchbook just in case something catches my eye. (:

I also did a portrait of the Marmite for her belated birthday present because she's been wanting one hahahaa. Finally got the time to do it after the end of my hectic semester. :D I have so much to improve on my watercolour techniques!

Oh, and I finally got my fat ass out of the house to jog today because I couldn't give myself the excuse that it's raining anymore hahaha. Feeling so unfit!

Immortals

So many thoughts were running through my mind on the bus ride home, so many things to say, to note them down, to draw them out. But I don't even feel like visiting those thoughts again, so let me just talk about today. (:

Shopping + Movie date today with Babsey, after realizing that we haven't got the chance to go out together like this for ages. Went to H&M for the first time since it opened hahaha! Decided to watch immortals after that, and I sort of regretted it halfway through the movie because I'm not one who can stand the sight of blood and gore.

If it wasn't for the nice outfits, I don't think I would've sustained for long. Hahahaha, I really love those golden armors. I forsee sketches/paintings on them coming up tomorrow. (:

Btw, Daniel Sharman looked so gorgeous in that. And I love his helmet.

Home Alone

Spent one afternoon learning some digital painting...haha i cheated by putting the reference photo behind, is that how it works? D: I have no idea, but the outcome turned out quite to my liking. (: But actually I don't see the point in painting something like this cause it looks exactly like the picture. Ohwell, just to improve my technical skills! :B

How I love free days like this where I can stay home alone to do stuff that I like. :D

Chilling.

I miss this particular day in Melbourne, where we were chilling outside this particular cafe, just sipping coffee and making conversations...

It's 1am, everyone's asleep and 'm still waiting for the boy to come back...

It's finally over, and we're all like free birds.

I missed taking bus rides alone in the night, listening to music i love, and looking out the windows and seeing familiar grounds. After so many months of being stuck in school with friends/alone/getting lost in the midst of my hectic life, it feels so good to finally be home and feel this calm.

It has been a long time.

Final

'Transience'

(Final FDN multi-figure project)

Acrylic on Canvas

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Growing up is a scary thought, to have more and more responsibilities, to see the ugly side of people/ things, to accept that this is reality. But do not forget that at the end of the day, all these things do not last for good. Soon we'd all be 80 years old, soon we'll all be gone before you even know it---where peace surrounds us.

Your Love Never Fails

Come on Jedidah, 1 more painting, 1 more paper to go and you're done.

Goodnight. (:

You make all things work together for my good ♥

Kiss Me Slowly

The painting of Bogong Village for 2D final landscape is finally done! (: I tried putting it up in my room on the wall and it fits totally. Even the sky is the same colour as my walls! (Not intended hahaha) 've decided that it's going up in my room after 've handed it in and gotten it back :D First work to be hung up i realise, hehe!

Almost 1/3 done with FD final painting (: Loving the colours for the first canvas. This is probably the most daring painting I've done. While some figures are referenced from photos, the rest is mostly imagined... the colours too. I was afraid it would turn out looking amateur, but haha, isn't that bad so far. (to me at least)

I feel Monday blues, just that it's on every Sunday night.

I've been saying this again and again, telling myself that it is the last week I'm gonna go through this stress before the holidays! I'm really, really looking forward to the weekends. Then I'll finally also have time to go for driving lessons and complete them!

I am so excited. (:

Stay with me, baby stay with me
Tonight, don't leave me alone
Walk with me
Come and walk with me
To the edge of all we've ever known
I can see you there with the city lights
Forteenth floor pale blue eyes
I can breathe you in
Two shadows standing by the bedroom door
You know I could not want you more
Then I did right then
As our heads leaned in

well I'm not sure what this going to be
But with my eyes clentched all I see
Is the sky line through the window
The moon above you and the streets below
Hold my breath as you're moving in
Taste your lips and feel your skin
When the time comes
Baby don’t run, just kiss me slowly

Invincible

After many months of considering...I've made up my mind on going to animation (: Because I think I'll enjoy it there. I am going to make cute animations!

I'm so tired of paintinggg, i needa break. It's not that 've been spending a very long time painting today, it's just so tiring to get my eyes lost in the midst of the many many many many trees @_@

I love how colourful my landscape painting is. But I don't want to show you leh C:

RUN.

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

I haven't seen you cried like this before, all these time we've been together. Neither have I sobbed like this in a long while. All I wanted to do was to hug you there, and stay that way forever.

Insecurities--my long lost friend came back to visit in the past few days. You were the only one who was able to chase it away for the longest time, and you'll be the only one still.

Just today I realized, how much I can't survive if you really ever leave me one day. You asked why invest in something that's bringing hurt to us every moment. I guess it's so much better to hurt this way, then to have nothing at all.

There comes a time, every now and then, 'd feel like this...

So afraid to be alone, this emptiness kills me. Slowly.

But it's so comforting to know you'd always be here. I pray that forever lasts.

Why did you make me fall so hard for you?

Love is Romanicized

Not pretty enough for you,

And never good enough in anyway.

I'd just lay in here, while the world passes me by.

Right in here where it's safe.

The Escapade

I've said before that I don't like to compare my artworks with others, but why am I feeling the stress and the urge to do so recently? I feel stuck. Art is about the enjoyment and the satisfaction of doing what I love, I need to find back this feeling that got lost along the way.

Sometimes, inevitably, I feel inferior.

At the end of the day, all I needed was a little painting&music therapy.