We need art.

These friends of mine — theseartists — are doing something that borderlines on obsession.

They’re tirelessly working their fingers to the bone to create something important and meaningful.They’re spending more time on their craft than they ever will be rewarded for.

But it doesn’t matter.

Because they’re creating art. And while the “reward” may never come, they will leave a legacy.

Art allows us to see the invisible, to call forth truth and light in a world shrouded in darkness.

It speaks to most real part of ourselves, the part we’ve forgotten.

It transcends our current circumstances and gives us proper perspective.

We can’t face great art and not be changed. And the world most definitely needs to change — for the better.

Just checked my results like 2 days ago and though it could have been better, I thank God for it because it's not that bad (: Well at least I got the major of my choice, and that's all that matters because...who looks at gpa anyway?! And yup, I dropped the right core subject, the one I scored the lowest for hahahha.

Came back from genting 2 days ago and I had a really fun time with the Babsey and the Jun brothers. Not to mention the part where I was forced to take the rides in the theme park :S This is a type of fear that does not need to be conquered IMO. I feel so old. And it's funny how they renovated the bowling alley into one that looks lika club. Hahahha!

And we're off to hongkong in 2 days time and I'm reaaaalllyy looking forward to it because the whole family + Babsey + Brother's girlfriend is going! The last time we went it was only me and the marmite. I'm going to bring my sketchbook and tools along and hopefully get the chance to squeeze in some sketches. It'll be my first overseas sketching journal sorta thing. I hope. :D

Well it's Christmas tomorrow! I can't believe we're gna sing in church. hahahah. There's so many things to look forward to but i'm bored now I need to find something exciting to do!

Merry Christmas Everyone~

Finally! C:

The boy is finally back today and I can't wait to see him tmrw. ((((:

And so I managed to survive the past 2 weeks in hall alone! Well actually not really alone because of the awesome friends in cheer! Trainings have been so fun trying to hit/perfect the stunts with those weird people (: Having lunch dinner supper with them, mahjong and Saboteur sessions, and washing the terribly smell-lee cheer mats together. I enjoyed myself very much!

(Though I've so many bruises and injuries and over-stretched muscles, I think it's worth it)

And for those times when I was alone, HIMYM tide me through hehehe. :D

Maybe choosing to quit Aces was the right choice after all.

Come Back Quick ):

Missing the boyfriend so so so much right now.

My body is dying. Over-stretched and aching muscles and bruises. I can't even so proper stretching now because the pain is unbearable when I do.

I feel so unproductive and lazy.

Sucks much.

The No-Boyfriend Syndrome

I've been surviving quite well in hall and cheer practices have been really fun! Apart from the neck injuries and aching muscles...haha, i hope it heals before monday's practice. I can't believe I'm actually surviving hall life alone quite well. It must be the tiredness and the number of hours i spend sleeping/watching HIMYM!

(And the fact that I'm really looking forward to next Friday)

Decided to quit Aces after much considerations because of some commitment problems, and I actually feel quite relief. Maybe I should spend more time on school work instead when school reopens (:

Today I went to Chinatown with Leonard and Lizhi for some outdoor sketching session. Then headed to Orchard to find the Marmite and we did some shopping for our hongkong trip :D Managed to get a few clothes and a pair of pumps! Although we were both so shagged after that. Shopping is srsly the best form of exercise because:

1. You carry heavy bags of things around
2. You walk alot and you're motivated by nice looking things
3. You eat less while shopping
4. You feel so happy after that because you have new clothes to wear!

Yaay. C:

I thought I'd be suffering some separation anxiety with the boy away but so far I think I'm still fine hehe. Just really missing his face and the warmth of his body...

(And wondering what he's doing 24/7, ever since the last update text I received two days ago :'C)

STARWARS IN ADM

Loving the current colour of my hair.

I am so happy right now because I got all the teachers and time slots I wanted for the next semester, thank God really. He answers prayers just like that. Now 'm looking forward to the next sem! (:

Holidays are gna be kinda (very) sucky for me for the next two weeks because I'll be living alone in hall because of cheer. And the boyfriend is leaving for Thailand tonight until next Friday and 'll be a lonely soul )': I'll just be looking forward to cheer everyday, and looking forward to the end of next week. Time will fly like butterflies, right?

(And we should totally have more outdoor sketching outings, it's really very therapeutic)

I can get through this. Yes I can.

Sketching, Shopping, Eating, Chilling.

Decided to meet up with some classmates to chill and do some outdoor sketching today. Headed to The Sail @ Marina Bay with Leonard, Li Zhi, and Ivan. We went up to the 44th floor and the view was so awesome.

I decided on sketching individual parts of the whole scenery that caught my eyes.

The end products:

The Fullerton Hotel: the swimming pool surrounded by cute little trees

And a really random cluster of buildings that had orange rooftops. They reminded me of a fairyland, like houses wearing orange caps to block the sun. (:

Then went to meet the parents for some shopping + dinner! Had chinese food and ate xlb for the first time in my life. :D

The Major Results were out today, and I thank God that He has put me where He thinks is best for me (: Got into Vis Comm, my first choice and I thank God. So I am going to work hard, explore and have fun in this major!

Illustration Friday-Round

What do you want this Christmas? (:

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My iTunes refuses to sync my iPhone now and I am so pissed. ):< Sigh I hate how I always feel so helpless when things like this happen to me cause I'm a tech noob and I don't know what to do about it...

I don't know why I feel so restless nowadays. Apart from driving lessons, 've been staying at home and feeling like there's nothing to do. I've been drawing too much in school and the first week of holidays, 'm beginning to get sick of it. Not sick maybe, just lack of inspirations. Seems like I've lost interest in most things. It always comes, but I'm sure that it'll pass.

To add on to that, I've been feeling lonely because Babsey's working everyday and he hardly has time to even reply his texts.

Oh what a sucky feeling.

Feeling a little lost today.

Daily Dose of Sketching

As promised, sketches of Ares and Poseidon are out. (: Though this are only for personal enjoyment hahaha. Babsey wants a painting of all the Greek Gods and he says he wants to hang in his room, so I'm going to do a bigger scaled one of all of them in watercolour (:

I love it how my teacher and my classmates are rubbing off their sketching habits onto me. I can't live a day without at least drawing something, anything. My hand itches to pick up the pen and brush when I don't. Even when I go out now I make it a point to bring along my sketchbook just in case something catches my eye. (:

I also did a portrait of the Marmite for her belated birthday present because she's been wanting one hahahaa. Finally got the time to do it after the end of my hectic semester. :D I have so much to improve on my watercolour techniques!

Oh, and I finally got my fat ass out of the house to jog today because I couldn't give myself the excuse that it's raining anymore hahaha. Feeling so unfit!

Immortals

So many thoughts were running through my mind on the bus ride home, so many things to say, to note them down, to draw them out. But I don't even feel like visiting those thoughts again, so let me just talk about today. (:

Shopping + Movie date today with Babsey, after realizing that we haven't got the chance to go out together like this for ages. Went to H&M for the first time since it opened hahaha! Decided to watch immortals after that, and I sort of regretted it halfway through the movie because I'm not one who can stand the sight of blood and gore.

If it wasn't for the nice outfits, I don't think I would've sustained for long. Hahahaha, I really love those golden armors. I forsee sketches/paintings on them coming up tomorrow. (:

Btw, Daniel Sharman looked so gorgeous in that. And I love his helmet.

Home Alone

Spent one afternoon learning some digital painting...haha i cheated by putting the reference photo behind, is that how it works? D: I have no idea, but the outcome turned out quite to my liking. (: But actually I don't see the point in painting something like this cause it looks exactly like the picture. Ohwell, just to improve my technical skills! :B

How I love free days like this where I can stay home alone to do stuff that I like. :D

Chilling.

I miss this particular day in Melbourne, where we were chilling outside this particular cafe, just sipping coffee and making conversations...

It's 1am, everyone's asleep and 'm still waiting for the boy to come back...

It's finally over, and we're all like free birds.

I missed taking bus rides alone in the night, listening to music i love, and looking out the windows and seeing familiar grounds. After so many months of being stuck in school with friends/alone/getting lost in the midst of my hectic life, it feels so good to finally be home and feel this calm.

It has been a long time.

Final

'Transience'

(Final FDN multi-figure project)

Acrylic on Canvas

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Growing up is a scary thought, to have more and more responsibilities, to see the ugly side of people/ things, to accept that this is reality. But do not forget that at the end of the day, all these things do not last for good. Soon we'd all be 80 years old, soon we'll all be gone before you even know it---where peace surrounds us.

Your Love Never Fails

Come on Jedidah, 1 more painting, 1 more paper to go and you're done.

Goodnight. (:

You make all things work together for my good ♥

Kiss Me Slowly

The painting of Bogong Village for 2D final landscape is finally done! (: I tried putting it up in my room on the wall and it fits totally. Even the sky is the same colour as my walls! (Not intended hahaha) 've decided that it's going up in my room after 've handed it in and gotten it back :D First work to be hung up i realise, hehe!

Almost 1/3 done with FD final painting (: Loving the colours for the first canvas. This is probably the most daring painting I've done. While some figures are referenced from photos, the rest is mostly imagined... the colours too. I was afraid it would turn out looking amateur, but haha, isn't that bad so far. (to me at least)

I feel Monday blues, just that it's on every Sunday night.

I've been saying this again and again, telling myself that it is the last week I'm gonna go through this stress before the holidays! I'm really, really looking forward to the weekends. Then I'll finally also have time to go for driving lessons and complete them!

I am so excited. (:

Stay with me, baby stay with me
Tonight, don't leave me alone
Walk with me
Come and walk with me
To the edge of all we've ever known
I can see you there with the city lights
Forteenth floor pale blue eyes
I can breathe you in
Two shadows standing by the bedroom door
You know I could not want you more
Then I did right then
As our heads leaned in

well I'm not sure what this going to be
But with my eyes clentched all I see
Is the sky line through the window
The moon above you and the streets below
Hold my breath as you're moving in
Taste your lips and feel your skin
When the time comes
Baby don’t run, just kiss me slowly

Invincible

After many months of considering...I've made up my mind on going to animation (: Because I think I'll enjoy it there. I am going to make cute animations!

I'm so tired of paintinggg, i needa break. It's not that 've been spending a very long time painting today, it's just so tiring to get my eyes lost in the midst of the many many many many trees @_@

I love how colourful my landscape painting is. But I don't want to show you leh C:

RUN.

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

I haven't seen you cried like this before, all these time we've been together. Neither have I sobbed like this in a long while. All I wanted to do was to hug you there, and stay that way forever.

Insecurities--my long lost friend came back to visit in the past few days. You were the only one who was able to chase it away for the longest time, and you'll be the only one still.

Just today I realized, how much I can't survive if you really ever leave me one day. You asked why invest in something that's bringing hurt to us every moment. I guess it's so much better to hurt this way, then to have nothing at all.

There comes a time, every now and then, 'd feel like this...

So afraid to be alone, this emptiness kills me. Slowly.

But it's so comforting to know you'd always be here. I pray that forever lasts.

Why did you make me fall so hard for you?

Love is Romanicized

Not pretty enough for you,

And never good enough in anyway.

I'd just lay in here, while the world passes me by.

Right in here where it's safe.

The Escapade

I've said before that I don't like to compare my artworks with others, but why am I feeling the stress and the urge to do so recently? I feel stuck. Art is about the enjoyment and the satisfaction of doing what I love, I need to find back this feeling that got lost along the way.

Sometimes, inevitably, I feel inferior.

At the end of the day, all I needed was a little painting&music therapy.

Mind Block.

Before I start thinking of any ideas for 3D and 4D, or reflecting on the cheer stunts we practiced today, I have to clear my mind off everything for just awhile..

I keep telling myself that all that 'm doing now are the things that I love to do so much, but I don't know why 'm not enjoying myself as I used to...maybe it's the stress that I'm feeling, to want to perfect everything.

I need to loosen up. I need to stop thinking too much, and start feeling.

It's only Monday and I feel like a whinny little girl who wants to go home and fall right back into his arms. My body feels like it's tearing apart...

Anyway on a happier note,

I had an awesome 19th last saturday. (: I love the presents the wishes and most importantly the company! To add on, the class was so sweet today they gave me more food to add to my secret stash hehehe.

I feel like sleeping.

What is Life all about?

Were there times you're so tired of everything, you just wanna

Stop the world for a moment.

and you wonder why we're even striving so hard

for the future.

And you dread everything that's yet to come.

and being judged.

You feel like there's only one place you'd like to be at, in every second of your life that passes. But you don't have a choice cause you're stuck here and

being forced to continue striving on, by yourself.

Well that's how I'm feeling now.

Mattias Adolfsson

Finally had some time to flip through the cute little book of illustrators. (: Life is good!

This guy, is amazing. I wonder where he got all his imagination from. D:

LINK!

One Thing On My To-Do List

Was to run a marathon/mini-marathon at least once before I die. And I did it today. (: Ran the Nike 10K with Annie and we completed it in about 1hr 15min :D And i would totally do it again...

This Could Go On Forever

Sentosa on Saturday with the boy! That idiot wanted to go catch fish haha so I sun tanned and caught some colour. :D It has been a long time since 've done that! The sun was so strong after tanning about half an hour I couldn't stand lying there anymore hahaha! We practiced a couple of cartwheels on the sand after that and I can finally do some nicer ones yaay!

I really love days like these, I love it when we go on dates/trips, love it when we just stay home with nothing to do all day, love it when he stays over during long weekends and make me don't wna go back to school. Love it and I can't wait for his exams to be overrrrr. (:

I think Peppie misses me, because he has been following me around the house ever since I came back from school, for the past few days. I think he's secretly happy that 'm home on a weekday too. (:

Spent half my day working on my imaginary space for 2D homework...the other half was spent sleeping, eating, and slacking away. I am so happy 'm finally done with this i remember how bad it looked last night. (:

Next homework on my waiting list: Self-Portrait.

Stuck In Here

I can't believe how long I've actually spent on this piece of A3 drawing, and another one that 'm currently struggling with. ): It's so draining that I can sleep before and after doing it, and still feel tired the next day like I haven't slept at all...

Why am I perpetually stuck in this room slugging my guts out. ): Why is there a sudden bomb of homework being dropped on us.

I miss the boyfriend and I can't wait for this weekend when we can finally have a day off by ourselves. (: And I really hope he can come here to visit my hall during recess week! Cause busy busy him hasn't seen my room/school. ):

We went to Marina Bay for an outdoor sketching session during Foundation Drawing class on monday and I loved it! Thank God the rain had alrdy stopped when we were there...spent the whole afternoon sketching and painting before heading back for cheer prac.

I love how cheer pracs are on mondays because it makes me look forward to school after being sad about how my weekends have just ended. (:

Now I'm back to 2D part 2 sketch, back to aching back and aching neck and pulling hair. ): And I take it as a challenge. Improvements come with a price...

Thank God For Everything

I had an almost perfect weekend. I only realised how good this period of my life is yesterday in church when we had to share our prayer requests, I had no requests and only to thank God for all that He has blessed me with.

The trip to SPCA was a good one...though it made me want to adopt a few cute little ones. ): Shall not post the pictures taken cause 'm gna use them for my assignment!

Especially for you. ♥

Why is Everyone so Obsessed?

I love the boyfriend so much. Knowing that I was upset last night, he brought the kite-flying plan forward and surprised me at my house today with two huge kites just to cheer me up :B One of which resembled Sambal, my kite that flew away! We headed to an empty field near my house and spent our afternoon there.

The rest of the day was spent sleeping (woke at 12+, and napped throughout the evening), and doing Don Low's homework. (: Literally stayed in bed cuz I couldn't even roll out of it, my whole body felt so heavy like it just sank into my bed. Right now I still can't stand totally straight due to my hurting abs...walking around like an old woman. )':

Quite satisfied with my sketches...might still be touching them up with some colours hmmm. But on the other hand I like how they look in black and white...

Received a letter from Abigail today and it was so motivating. (': I really aspire to create art that honour God one day.

SAM with G6 tmrw, then heading to SPCA and then J's house for a mahjong session. Mmm, life's good. ♥

Love School, Friends, & Cheer ♥

Just came back from cheer training and it was pretty fun (: Making many friends there! And my muscles are already starting to ache and feel heavy...I don't know what will be of me tmrw when I wake ): Anyway I'm officially falling in love with school and cheer and my friends!

Today we had a mini class sports day. My class is seriously v cute i am starting to enjoy their company alot! So after lesson today we went to have lunch together and played some indoor sports + jogging after that! The company was so great i had alot of fun :D

Let me tell you how cute my class is! On Monday, we all dressed up like our foundation drawing teacher...because he's always dressed in black tee and jeans like, everyday. So we had a dress code to class.

How cute is that! I officially love my class have I already said that? (:

Anyway school has been doing good to me I feel v contented with my life right now. Just ystd when I was doing my 3D metal sculpture I was thinking how fortunate I am to be doing what I really love to do...my homeworks are my frustrations, yet at the same time my therapy.

The reason I haven't been blogging is cause I got to caught up with work and socializing heh heh! In my free time I catch up on sleep, or eat.

Got tired of doing homework ystd night so I drew something I felt most comfortable with in my own little sketchbook which was waiting to be filled (so I can go buy another one). I secretly want to buy new nice sketchbooks on every visit made to Artfriend. :/

Just a little motivation for J too (:

Sometimes all we need is to step back into our comfort zones for a little while, and be recharged.

Gosh I am seriously growing abs, they hurt really bad.

Mini Getaway, Please?

I should always. learn to control. and control and control and control.

Like all those guilt tripping wasn't enough.

Zoning Out.

Having some art history lecture now but 'm totally catching no ballz...this is worst than sova/H3 art because it's so boring and the lecturer is totally not helping at all. ): Camwhoring at the back of the LT with Mosby and Leonard.

School has been great so far and I'm loving it! Though the stack of homework lying in my dorm is never ending D: My normal sleeping time became like 2+am and my body clock is set to wake at 730am...sigh i miss sleep so much.

I love my weekends, especially Saturday mornings when I wake up at lunch time and see J's face right in front of me (; I miss that poot so much when I'm in school nowadays. Throughout this whole period I feel myself becoming more and more certain that he's gna be the one who'll walk through my whole life with me...and I feel most fortunate to have him (((: (Love declaration for you babe hehe)

Here's what I did in 4D class today...Self portrait! My title is "A Masquerade in the Life of I". We had to use photoshop to change the image and totally give it a different meaning. I'm still a noooob at photoshop so I'm quite happy with what I managed to do actually haha!

Original portrait

Edited portrait

Anyway the burning question of the week: Should I join touch or hall cheer? D:

Homework overload but still, ♥.

I'm currently being bombarded with 10 000 assignments to do but I'm not doing anything about it right now because I want to blog :D Have been neglecting this ever since the homework came in...

I love foundation drawing lessons, it's officially my favourite subject (: I am so happy because I had alot of take-aways from the last figure drawing lesson on monday! And I will get used to drawing real life nude models...

Us doing out homework at Jurong Point, in the middle of the walkway hahaha. The security guard came to chase us away not long after, but Annette being Annette, insisted that we stay put cause we were not obstructing/disturbing the public. Then he said he'll ask his supervisor to come talk to us but like, he disappeared and never came back (;

This is one of the two books I got from the ADM bazaar today at $26!! (: I felt so happy just now while reading just the first page (when I am supposed to be reading some print-outs for tmrw's lesson :/) Yaay. The very first two art books I've bought in my life. (:

I feel like I'm morphing into a emo closet mugger (according to J) hahaha! I'm choosing to stay and do my homework instead of going to an event with friends, and I am enjoying myself though I'm really vv tired. (: Am so tired my cough came back worst. It's time to recoverrrr!

By the way I have awesome friends at school. :D :D :D

Alrighty I shall attempt to read abit, and go to sleep. Missing JJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJ. Many. I don't know what I'd do without his texts getting me through each day. ♥♥♥