BREATHES.

This feels too surreal, and odd, that 'm actually having my own life back. The last paper is finally over!!!!!

I can finally draw and paint in my own little sketchbook, anything I want, anything I like, anything at all. There's no one to stop, guide, or critique me now (:<

I haven't felt my own presence in a really long while...ever since the semester started. I have been losing myself, getting lost in all the projects and exams that I could no longer feel my own presence. Even alone time wasn't really purely time spent with myself.

This really feels to unreal to me. The semester felt like a long draggy one, yet at the same time it feels like 3 months just flew past me just like that.

Anyhow I am so free now I don't know what to do. Let's start with watching running man (':

Three. More. Days. To. Freedom.

(say hello to my new Dr Martens which accompanied me to the exam hall last wed (: Such comfort really helped me to pull through the long hours of sitting thru the paper)

These pictures very well sums up this lovely weekend I had thanks to the Babsey. (: I sincerely thank God for this boy's presence in my life from the bottom of my heart. Really, I wouldn't know what 'd do without him around. He can be so annoying at times but the next second he can be so cute and the next he's like a comforting pillow where I rest my head, a place that's mine and only mine.

♥

And here I am once again, alone in the four walls of my hostel being very unmotivated to study for the last two papers. But I tell myself this is the last weekend of the sem I am going to travel here carrying such a heavy heart at least.

I hope the weekend's been good to you too!
Happy End of Sem~ (in three days time)

Exam Blues

Because 'm suffering from major exam blues right now, I shall sleep early tonight and for the longest time so I don't have to face this feeling for such a long time. Sometimes I think it's good to have the ability to sleep for long long long hours...

I have almost given up studying. I think I know most things already but 'm sure when my friends start talking about the subject 'll realize how unprepared I am but urgh, I've had enough.

Am I the only one who's suffering such major exam blues now?

Finally in hall tonight, but 'm going straight home after the paper tmrw because I can't stand staying in school anymore.

I hate this feeling of being alone. I just need to be around at least someone. I miss the boy so much although I just saw him last night/this morning. I just wanna be next to him all day and night because it's so comforting. Just his presence alone is enough to make me feel like everything is gna be fine, to make me think positively.

Having the same feelings I had when I was taking my exams in JC...the night before a paper when I couldn't go to sleep and you made a cup of warm, comforting milk for me.

All these depressing thoughts just comes flooding in the moment you're away.


On a side note,
I love how after every talk-it-out-and-crying-session, I feel myself drawn closer to you and falling even more in love with you...

This can't be me

've been procrastinating and escaping the fact that my exams aren't over yet. It just sucks to have to study even after half my life has been sucked out by the crazy projects before this and it felt like school has ended since then.

Like for example IT fair on friday, and we went shopping for winter clothes and shoes today...

've been a really, really, really emotional (maybe unreasonable) girl lately I have no idea why or how I could have controlled myself but what in the world is happening to me?!

It was so bad that I couldn't bring myself to go back to hall tonight because it sucks to be there though theoretically it might be a more conducive place than home.

Just 10 more days and I am free. 10 more days and I'm sure 'll be better.

What do I do?

& so 've been thinking lately,

about this insecurity.
uncertainty.


And it's bugging me.

>48 hours of staying awake

Last Saturday was the Marmite's birthday, so Babsey and I baked some apple cinnamon muffins for her. :D Okay I admit most of the credit goes to him because I was really tired from school and I'm just not as good at baking as him haha. At least I was of some help. :B

So from Sunday till Tuesday (yesterday), a lot of shit happened and Jon and I didn't get to sleep for two nights cuz we were so busy rushing our type process book out in time for submission. I cannot tell you how epic is was. We were walking zombies, or working machines.

 

Nevertheless I really thank God for this 3–days experience because it really taught me a lot. And if all these bad things didn't happen, I wouldn't have been able to produce something that I'm so proud of now. (: I could see how they were a blessing in disguise.

God works in His own ways for our good. (:

I had a 5 + 12 hours of sleep after lesson yesterday and it was so rewarding. But 'm feeling sleepy again now so maybe I should sleep a little more before starting to study for my papers...

Feels like exams are over isn't it? :/

It's Sunday night again.

I'm really curious how the weekends can just pass by so quickly like that every week and how the weekdays feel so damn long.

What did we even do on the whole weekend omg. I only remember watching a movie, that's about it. ): Sigh every Sunday night 'm back at my desk in hall, feeling this sense of emptiness. It's when I miss him the most.

But it's alright, it means we're reaching the end of sem very quickly....

SIGH. Will this workload ever end.