Inspired in the afternoon

It's been a long while since 've written on this page. & Because today I feel inspired & motivated 'm here. (:

Today Pann Lim (founder of Kinetic) came to my school to give a talk about working in the design industry in Singapore and it was really inspiring!

Life seems much better and I seem to be going in the right direction slowly but surely. I'm still in the process of finding myself as an artist and designer, but i know as long as I keep doing what I find interest in I will reach there one day like Pann Lim.

I've figured from the past 2 years of school that it's very difficult to develop creativity if you're always stuck in school/ too focused on school work all the time. It traps you and kills your creative juices because all you think about is meeting deadlines and getting good grades. Grades don't define who you are as an individual and it does not reflect your true capabilities at the end of the day.

I love how my typography teacher always ask us to go out and have fun and experience new things all the time. This is how we grow as a person, and this in turns add values to our works because our memory bank is so filled with things that we would never run out of things that inspire us.

With that said, I feel that 'm taking this school term a lot more lightly than I was in the past semesters. But that does not mean that 'm not putting in effort in my projects because they are things that I really love to do. It's just that besides all these workload I make sure I set aside time to go out and play and take clean breaks away from work. Which is helping me very much in terms of coping with stress. (:


I'm turning 21 next week. I can't take in the fact that all of us are growing up too quickly.

We're thinking of a short get-a-way trip (just me and the boyfriend yaay) to wherever and I hope the plan will materialise hehe!

Back to School!

Summer break is over in the blink of an eye & it's the first day of school today. ):

Moving in back to hall gave me major school blues yet again. But having awesome friends with me in hall made it a lot better. (: They give me a sense of comfort whenever i feel homesick.

Had my first illustration class today. It was a little bit inspiring, but i felt it wasn't enough to set me back on track. Somehow 'm feeling rather unmotivated this semester. Call it lazy, existential crisis, or just sick of pulau NTU.

Maybe it's because staying in hall = being cooped up in school the whole week = no inspiration. Maybe I should leave this place whenever I can to go out and think about what I am doing with my life...

It's only the first day and it feels so long already. Such a sad start to a new semester, but hopefully Type & GD classes will make me a little happier here.

^"4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵ It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶ Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷ It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."

1 Corinthians 13:4-7


What exactly is love?

Love is letting things go his way even if it bothers you so much, because it makes him happy.
To a point where your emotions & insecurities becomes burdensome to both, love, is hiding your negative emotions because you don't want to start a fight. It is learning to accept things that don't go your way, it is letting go & feeling peaceful even if he ever leaves one day.

But when you're just so tired from hiding all these under your pillow, all you want to do is to let your mind wander off to a place far away and leave everything else behind. Everything. All those emotions all those ridiculous thoughts all those assumptions all those doubts all those insecurities.

Cornerstone

Recently I've been having a really bad time struggling in almost every aspect of my life — Family, relationship, money, and life in general. My life has never felt more meaningless, especially when there isn't any workload from school to distract me. I haven't realised how the 'hope' that I have was now placed on earthly things. I've been chasing things that will rot and die and pass away. Things that slowly diminished and left me there — alone and empty. I haven't realised how far I've drifted from God because of my sins. Prayers did not feel like conversations with God, but rather self–centered requests that were sometimes answered because of His grace.

Today I was touched by 2 songs we sang for worship in church. This was one of them.

"I dare not trust the sweetest frame

but wholly trust in Jesus' name"

This sentence struck me then. The sweetest moments come and go in life, and nothing lasts forever but only our anchor Jesus Christ.

-Verse 1-
My hope is built on nothing less
than Jesus' blood and righteousness
I dare not trust the sweetest frame
but wholly trust in Jesus' name

[Verse 1]

-Chorus-
Christ alone, Cornerstone
Weak made strong, in the Savior's love
Through the storm
He is Lord, Lord of All

-Verse 2-
When darkness seems to hide His face
I rest on His unchanging grace
In every high and stormy gale
My anchor holds within the veil

My anchor holds within the veil 

[Chorus]

He is Lord, Lord of all

[Chorus 2x]

-Verse 3-
Then He shall come with trumpets sound
Oh, may I then in Him be found
Dressed in His righteousness alone
faultless, stand before the throne

Bottled.

I don't know why you feel this way every time. You've no reason to feel like this so just

hold it all in,

Even if you can't.

And today is the day I don't even know where to turn to anymore. I don't know how to cope with this failure.

Failure as a daughter, a girlfriend, and a student.

In the blink of an eye it's already mid Feb. Haven't been blogging v often because I was pretty must cooped up with cheer, work, cny, and the boyfriend. Yes pardon me for always writing about him every time I blog. He's flying off to Brunei tonight and 'm having some withdrawal symptoms. )':

Let me spam some of the recent photos woohoo~

4th place but trophy's but a prop.

 CNY2013

Meowsy in her pretty qipao!

Matching prints for the day C:

Gamthering over CNY

Making wraps for pre-Vday celebration

& having the real deal. He surprised me with a call saying he could book out for the night so I went to meet him at NYNY and this huge plate of monster burger + fries came and covered the whole table I had no idea. (Really, the burger was much bigger than my face)

Explaining to me his present for me C:

"Do you know why I bought this for you? See!" *Carries on to read the words*

My vday + Brunei trip letter to him

His self-proclaimed shell. It's so torturous to see him design birthday cards but I love sitting beside him and doing my own work while he does this. C: And criticise his art talent.

Choosing to dye my hair over side-shaving it :/

My new hair and phone cover that 'm so contented with C:

Praying in the train while heading to the airport haha so intense :B

I hate you but I love you. You're prolly the only person who can make me hate you so much at one moment and love you again the next because I forget whatever hatred 've felt.

Be safe, & be back soon. ♥